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Stories of Resilience: Lessons to Be Learned

My Enlightening Gaming Experience

By Ross Beurmann

I returned from Iraq in late December 2004. I was in the Persian Gulf region for almost the entirety of 2004 with the 504th Military Intelligence Brigade.  This blog post isn’t about that really, it’s actually about a revelation I made with my wife’s help regarding my gaming habits pre and post deployment.  I know this sounds funny, in fact I actually feel a little strange writing about this due to the lack of importance gaming has on real life to most people, but I will explain what I think is behind my gaming transformation.

Madden 2003

Madden 2003

Pre-deployment I mostly played sports games like Madden 2003 or NHL from EA Sports.  I never got bored of playing with my wife or a friend or even with the computer.  A month before I deployed my wife got me a present which was actually a joke, but she bought me a game about Desert Storm, and since my brother in law was coming into town, she said he could help me train for my deployment.  We started playing taking turns, and it was enjoyable when he was around but not fun to play the 1st or 3rd person shooter type game without the company of a friend. I continued to play sports games mostly and only played shooter games when I was hanging out with my brother in law.

During my deployment I played Ghost Recon on my roommates Xbox.  I had never really played Xbox, as I had been a PlayStation fan, but this game had a Cooperative mode where we could both play at the same time and it was a lot of fun.  It was a great way to spend the time at the desolate remote location like we were in.  We only got a PX at our post 5 months into our stay there.  You know it is a problem when people are fighting to draw convoy duty so they can pick-up stuff at the Baghdad PX.

Metal Gear Solid IV

Metal Gear Solid IV

Post deployment, or what I consider my complete shift away from sports games and becoming mostly a shooter gamer (I use the term “gamer” loosely since I typically reserve that for people who are actually consistently good at games and not people who just really enjoy them like me), I have found myself easily bored of sports games while playing with others, online, or versus the computer.  I recently got rid of all of my sports games.  A friend at work recommended Metal Gear Solid IV to me and since I purchased that I have strictly played only that game along with a few other shooters like Battlefield 1943 and MAG, a game I am currently a Beta Tester for.

Lessons to be LearnedWhat I find is that these games bring me back to when I was deployed.  There is tons of action, explosions, small arms fire, bombers, mortars, air defense, compatriots, and stress.  This stress is short lived and not constant but it is there.  The sounds are there, the graphics are extremely life like.  It brings me back to a place where I felt that what I was doing was important on a global level.  It has instant highs and lows: one round you may do excellent and 5 minutes later at the end of the next round you are completely disappointed with your performance.  It’s a way to get some of the good and bad feelings back from my deployment and without the bad you don’t realize how great the good ones are.  I am sure this sounds odd to those who haven’t experienced a deployment.  It is definitely a unique way to feel when you return home and since for me it has been almost exactly 5 years since my return it obviously has had a long lasting effect on my life.

Ali Manouchehri, another contributor on this site, told me about a study Oxford did regarding Tetris and combating flashback memories in PTSD cases so I read an article about it.  I have never had a flashback, and I do not have a debilitating case of PTSD, but I think that this article is important so I am posting a link to it here: http://news.bbc.co.uk/2/hi/health/7813637.stm I can say for sure that my experience serving in the military has changed me, most of the time for the better but I am sure that every change isn’t for the best.

In my opinion, here is the bottom line.  These shooter games allow me to relive things from a time that I am too scared to actually recreate in real life.  These games allow me to have all of the excitement and adrenaline rush of the combat experience without having to be put back into actual harm’s way.  I really enjoyed and miss the Army, so this allows for me to have my family time and the excitement of explosions, bullets, and team work.

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Living the Dream

Greetings again from the Sunshine State.

As I mentioned in my first post I would like to bring some awareness to an issue facing many of us returning war veterans. Post Traumatic Stress Disorder (P.T.S.D.) is a monster that war veterans have been facing since the beginning of armed conflict. In a nutshell, it is the stress brought on by a traumatic event. I understand that it is more complicated than that but I would like to keep it as simple as possible for our purposes here.

Lessons to be Learned

I am living with P.T.S.D., and I am thriving in some respects and having problems in others. In this and future posts I plan to use myself and my experiences as examples.

Post-traumatic stress can manifest itself in many different ways. It is usually brought on by a trigger mechanism, or what some might call a catalyst. It can be something very minor that can be easily controlled or it can be so large that it has life altering circumstances. So what do I mean when I say I am both thriving and having problems at the same time? Well, I can tell you that in school I am thriving. I have been back for a couple of years now and continue to pull a 3-plus grade point average every semester. It is in other parts of my life that I am struggling.

My relationship with my wife has been strained because of the way I react to certain things; my relationship with my stepson has suffered as well. I have quick reactions full of emotion that are not checked before they come out. In many cases they are very aggressive and quite counterproductive. I am impatient in numerous situations and become frustrated easily. To top it all off I often have to overcome bouts of anxiety, especially when I am outside my house. I do well in social situations but I find them physically taxing. I have been receiving help with all of these problems and I am improving at a good rate. My wife and I have worked hard to help me overcome a lot of these symptoms.

One of the most common problems facing our war veterans when we return home is drug and alcohol abuse. We turn to these to escape from emotions. I drank heavily when I returned home. I would drink to the point that I would pass out at night. I would do this because I could not sleep. I could not sleep because there were a healthy wave of emotions that I refused to face. What made sleep hard was the P.T.S.D. in conjunction with a traumatic brain injury. When I would finally sleep I had to deal with some strange and horrific dreams.

I would have dreams that most people would be scared by. I was scared, too, especially when I would have the same dream more than once. One of the strangest dreams took place in Iraq. We would be returning from a foot patrol at night. It was as if I were looking through a set of night vision goggles. There were two gates that we would have to come through at our forward operating base (F.O.B.). I can remember gaining access through the first gate but then not being able to enter the inner part of the base until daybreak. Since we could not get back to our hooches we would decide to sleep under the gun line (155-millimeter howitzers), something that would not be done for safety purposes. Just when I would be drifting off to sleep the gun line would open up. It was at that point that I would awake for real. I was never able to go back to sleep after that.

There were dreams that were both strange and violent. In one of them, I was in the spare bedroom of a condominium that I had rented before I enlisted. When I lived there the only thing in this room was my gun cabinet with all of my rifles and shotguns in it. During my dream I was in this room waist deep in stuffed animals. Someone would enter the room (I could never identify the person) and attack me. We would be fighting in this room. At a certain point in the fight I would gain the advantage. I would bend over this individual and bite his throat out. It was always bloody. Just then I would wake up.

One of the hardest dreams to deal with came back many times. It was one of the scariest in my mind. It took place in Iraq as well. I can remember being on patrol in Mahmudiya. That is the town that I was wounded in. I was always on patrol with a group of Marines. At some point in the dream I would become separated from my patrol. Iraq can be a scary place to find yourself alone in. It got worse. I cannot remember how, but I would lose my rifle (a good Marine does not lose his weapon). I would see a small kid scampering off with my rifle and follow him. I was terrified of returning back to base without my rifle. The kid would enter a building and I knew that I would have to follow him into the building. Keep in mind that I am defenseless. When I would enter the building I always encountered hand to hand combat with a few different individuals at one time. I would always defeat those attacking me. I can remember that I also would find a number of weapons that had once belonged to Marines – pistols, rifles and shotguns. To my dismay I would never find my rifle.

I would see the kid again and chase him one more time. I always wound up chasing him into another building and encountering more and more hand to hand combat situations. I would always find more weapons but never mine. I always picked up the weapons that I would find and bring them with me before

I gave pursuit to that kid again. This cycle would never end. I would thrash around in my bed until I would wake up hot and sweating. I could never get back to sleep and was quite disturbed by this dream.

While I was in Washington D.C. I started to make significant progress on many different fronts. I found a counselor there named Carey Smith, a disabled veteran from the Vietnam War. He has been through what I have. He began to teach me how to interpret my dreams in a positive way. I know that this can be hard to do. When he first told me I was very hesitant. As he explained it to me I started to understand what he was talking about.

We came to the conclusion that the dreams were my mind’s way of reconciling problems I had. They usually dealt with some guilt I had over one thing or another. In many of these situations, I would have no way of making things better, so my brain would do it for me in my sleep. Once I grasped this concept the dreams became much easier to deal with. I would then wake up in the middle of the night and be able to tell myself that there was nothing wrong and return to sleep. It is great. Currently, I am not dealing with any harsh dreams. I use the term “harsh” because I no longer see these dreams as bad but as healthy and productive.

One of the things that I am learning as I am living with P.T.S.D. is that these feelings can be dealt with positively, that these different symptoms do not have to control my life. I am doing my best to live my life and be happy. There is no magic pill that will make things better. By facing the difficult emotions and learning how to positively react to them my life becomes easier. The emotions are still there – they will probably never go away. But when I face them sober and head on I can live my good dreams and not be controlled by the difficult ones.

Semper Fidelis,
Mike Jernigan

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Protecting Warriors by Connecting Warriors

The CHALLENGE to returning warriors and their families

In the American Civil War, it was called “soldier’s heart.”  In subsequent wars, “combat fatigue,” “gross stress reaction,” and “post-Vietnam syndrome.”  For returning Gulf and Iraq war veterans, this extreme and ongoing anxiety disorder, has taken on a new moniker – “post-traumatic stress disorder” or PTSD.

Vision 21 Care FeaturesAlso called “battle fatigue” or “shell shock,” PTSD has only been recognized as a formal diagnosis since 1980, however, it has likely existed as long as humans have endured trauma.

From homemade land mines to improvised explosive devices (IEDs), chemical burns and laser injuries, the rules of war have changed and so have the wounds.  PTSD and traumatic brain injury have emerged as two signature injuries of the Iraq war, and the nation’s mental-health system will be strained to grapple with needs of returning veterans and their families for years to come.

Current studies estimate that the prevalence of PTSD among returning veterans ranges from 15 to 50 percent.  A Department of Veterans Affairs study released found that 38 percent of more than 280,000 Iraq and Afghanistan combat veterans who sought VA treatment received mental-health diagnoses. More than 60 percent of those diagnoses were for PTSD.

Usually the result of prolonged exposure to a traumatic event or series of events, PTSD is characterized by long-lasting problems with emotional and social functioning, and specific symptoms include flashbacks, hyper-vigilance, sleeplessness and depression.

The pressing issue of veterans’ mental health is underscored by the National Institute of Mental Health’s recent commission of a $50-million study to identify risk and protective factors for suicide among soldiers.  Subsequent research indicates that PTSD is associated with higher risk of Alzheimer’s and dementia and a higher risk for having cardiovascular disease risk factors.

Considering PTSD can take months or even years to manifest, the numerous warriors currently completing multiple deployments will ensure that rates of PTSD will only continue to skyrocket in the coming years.

The mental health and well-being of these brave veterans is the entire nation’s problem, not just the Pentagon’s. The wars in Afghanistan and Iraq have put enormous strains on the men and women of the U.S. military, and we must do more to ease their burden and heal their wounds.

How SOCIAL MEDIA can help address these challenges

More than 1.6 million U.S. soldiers have served since the war in Afghanistan began in 2001, many of whom have been exposed to prolonged combat and multiple tours of duty. Approximately 41 percent of our military forces serving on the front lines in Afghanistan and Iraq are young adults — 18-24 years old.

Called “Generation Y,” or the “Wired” generation, this group has been raised in an environment where information is shared instantaneously and openly among individuals and across cultures.  They have garnered a reputation for being peer-oriented and seekers of instant gratification, qualities fundamentally shaped by the emergence of instant communications technologies made possible through use of the internet, such as e-mail, text messaging, new media and social networking sites such as: Facebook, Myspace, and Twitter.

Generation Y are not simply information consumers, however, they are increasingly content providers, comfortable with all types of electronic tools and skilled at creating, uploading, searching, retrieving and storing knowledge in all its forms.

Despite recent controversy over the U.S. Marine Corp’s decision to ban numerous popular social media sites from its networks over security concerns, a growing number within the Pentagon’s top ranks are finding value in new media tools to disseminate information and bridge distances – whether geographic or cultural.  Top military brass continue to blog directly from the battlefield, The Department of Defense has plans to unveil its new home page complete with social media tools, the Army recently ordered all U.S. bases to provide access to Facebook and the Chairman of the Joint Chiefs of Staff has over 5,500 followers on Twitter.

The digital age is upon us.  The current tools available to our returning war fighters are limited and not as readily available to a new breed of 21st century warriors. We must harness the power of social media to arm our new breed of warrior with a sophisticated weapon to battle PTSD.

At MetroStar Systems Inc., our proposed solution is the Vision 21 CARE (Vision 21), a social media portal designed specifically for veterans and their families to provide a niche network for information gathering, sharing and dissemination of PSTD-specific information.

Unlike antiquated resources, this source of collaboration and knowledge sharing lives online 24-7, available at all hours from the comfort of home, barracks or tent. Plus, MetroStar’s Vision 21 will provide warriors with the preventative help, information and shared lessons from subject matter experts as well as their peers, while simultaneously assuaging the fear and protecting the anonymity so often cited by suffering veterans as reason for not seeking life-saving treatment.

LINKAGE  between evidence-based interventions and the those who provide services to returning warriors and their families

Vision 21 Care Did You Know PTSDPTSD is treatable if one recognizes the symptoms and seeks help from a clinical therapist or psychologist. Unfortunately, all too often PTSD goes untreated. Nearly 20 percent of service members who have returned from Iraq and Afghanistan report symptoms of PTSD or major depression, yet fewer than half seek treatment, a Rand Corp. study found last year.  Only 48 percent of warriors who meet the diagnostic criteria presently go for help. We must remove work to remove the stigma associated with PTSD by providing a central clearinghouse of information in peer-populated environment.

Comment on the potential of providing a LINK between warriors and resources

A simple Google search for “PTSD” yields an overwhelming and often inaccurate 4,060,000 results. Vision 21 will fulfill a mounting for the 60 million consumers currently turning to the internet to get the medical information they need – researching symptoms, diagnosing illnesses and administering their own ures.  And since research shows that consumer rely primarily on feedback and advice from peers inhabiting these digital platforms, Vision 21 has been conceptualized to harnesses the power of this peer-to-peer dialogue in a portal designed to directly connect families, service members, and health experts, while simultaneously serving as a centralized clearinghouse for existing, valid information resources.

LINK between warriors in a vet to vet service (social networking)

As experienced through previous work with the National Guard on the Resiliency Program, where the foundation of work was based on cognitive behavior therapy and preventative mental health, MetroStar identified that the bulk of knowledge that helps make programs successful —the “electronic” knowledge — is not always found in books, white papers, or briefings but rather it is trapped in the minds of the experienced – current and former scientists, doctors, clinicians, social workers, and those who have faced the realities of the battlefield.

Website can also be a TREATMENT AUGMENTATION TOOL that is portable and will help overcome the barriers to obtaining help (only 48% of warriors who meet diagnostic criteria presently go for help) Social media can be a PREVENTATIVE TOOL

Also, the website is designed not only for returning warriors, but their family members and most importantly the COMMANDERS on ways they can bolster resilience on a preventative basis.

Vision 21 will not provide centralized content from diverse audiences and facilitate communications between those impacted by PTSD, it will serve as a preventative tool and a resource throughout the process.  By removing barriers to diagnosis, such as anonymity concerns, Vision 21 can not only help identify those suffering with PTSD, but assist them by augmenting their treatment and recovery process as well.  Vision 21 will provide streamlined access to help for not only returning warriors, but for their support network -  in and out of the military, including offering commanders with the resources necessary to bolster resilience to prevent additional cases of PTSD.

Visions 21 will provide STREAMLINED ACCESS to help (include your examples here)and the material that will be provided will be mult media

Vision 21 will not only provide information, it will provide help.

Written by Ali Reza Manouchehri, CEO, MetroStar Systems Inc.

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